i'm only happy when it rains
my lengthy absence has been due to a depression that i'm still trying to shake. it doesn't help that the holidays are here. they always seem to bring me down for some reason and the fact that being here, in this place, seems to have brought me even lower.
i'm still trying to bring myself up from that. i have a friend that feels i should seek treatment for it. medication is great for some but i don't think it would be the best thing for me. nor do i believe in drowning myself in drugs and alcohol. being a pisces, i'm a supposed to be a prime candidate for addictive behaviour but i never seemed to catch on to that ( i seem to be the exception to many rules).
i'm here. i'm functioning under the radar most of the time, but i am still here. thank you nasra.
posted by twh @ 7:37 PM
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You know when you title your blog a women here...It does not mean just a women..its about the woman here that has to to walk through easy sands...through the rain...and her feet would sure travel through path filled with rocks and pebbles...Yes its not easy road...their days you even question what is the reason to wake up...but you find a tiny voice within says: that woman here have to get up and have to grasp and absorb the light...and if there is no sunshine out side...the women in there find the light within her soul...I have a saying I want share with you, I was told by a lady from south Africa who survived cancer her name is Rebecca. She said you touch a woman, you touch the rock...
I want to share this poem with you since your brought the subject of rain:
~Facing the Puring Rain~
I really "really" want to cry
I hear this voice inside
The pleading voice is mine
I was tought
That whenever I stumble
I must rise and fight
Feel my way through darkness
Just continue till I find light
I can feel agonies of my heart
Yet I can't fall apart
And here I am
Still listening to screams of pain
But till the end
I will face the pouring rain
Copyright nasra al adawi 2004
Hang in there Teresa. As far as treating depression goes, with or without meds - can be hard to tell.
Went through a period in my life where I'm sure I was clinically depressed, but came out of it apparently permanently. Given the shape I'm in, I may now be certifiably insane for NOT being depressed! Not happy either, but my body truly doesn't allow for that possibility anymore.
Geez, I'm probably not helping here, unless you react like my cousin who always says I cheer him up when we talk because of how much worse off I am than him. (We both appreciate dark humor...)
And I've known people who weren't helped by treatment and people who were.
Also, depression can go away on its own. So one way or another, look at it as a "this too shall pass" kind of thing, is what I'm thinking...
"Spiritualdiablog" Paul
now at Original Faith
i'm still here paul. still not taking any meds and still taking it one day at a time.
miss you
Just saying hallo its been awhile I have not heard ur news -whats up
only happened to me once and very briefly but my wie, in recent years, has suffered terribly with depression. hang in there terresa.
x
www.livinginpoetry.blogspot.com has a tribute for Paul of spiritualdiablog and now in his new website www.originalfaith.com. Hope u can join us in this tribute and if you can helps us spread the word among his blog friends
Thanks, see u there
Don't kill me for saying this but -- a prime candidate for addiction...to depression maybe? If my past addiction counselor knows what she's talking about then the depression will lift only when we're truly sick of it -- or it becomes the final cog that fixes the wheel, to sling us into a whirl and a newer world....
Am searching for a former classmate...
Terresa age 58-+ BHS Eagle...from Texas
CRW
my apologies anonymous....i'm 40 and from san diego. good luck with your search...teresa.
;) fantastic
this is now almost a year old and i have just been reposting all the old fekenham tales and saw your comments their. hope you are well. hope you have recovered from your depression.
i always thought that i was too 'tough' to ever fall down depressed. always until recently. now i know how bad you must have felt/feeling.
wishing you well. hope to hear from you soon.
russell - cocaine jesus
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